Well I have reached the uncomfortable stage of pregnancy. I don't remember hitting this until about the last 2 weeks with Faith, but it has come earlier (5 weeks to go - crazy!). I was watching Faith play by herself on the floor today and I got really sad. It is so hard for me to get up and down off the floor now, I rarely do it. My doctor actually told me not to do it often because I have been having contractions every time I have to get up and down - strange, I know. Anyway, I used to sit on the floor all the time to play with her (she can sit and play in your lap all day long and be happy) or crawl around and chase her. She loves for someone to be down there with her even if your not directly playing with her. I actually teared up just thinking this is my last few weeks of just me and her and I don't even feel like doing all the fun things we usually do together. She was so sweet just playing by herself and being so content, which I think made it worse. I started thinking about all the time she will have to play by herself because I will be feeding or changing or whatever. I am so excited to finally meet Sophia, but at the same time so sad for the time I will loose with Faith. Several people told me they had similar feelings when they were expecting their second, and I think it is just now hitting me hard. I have decided to try to do more things that do not take getting up and down off the floor, but you know then you have to compete with the heat. Yuck!!! But we did go out and feed the ducks tonight, and she loved it. I have decided to finally get my library card so we can go to the story times and check out new books. She loves to go to the book store, so she will be in heaven. I spent about 30 mins. looking on line for things we can do. And I have found some, but it is just so emotional thinking about all the changes (many good, I know)... some of it may just be prego hormones, but still... Anyway, just thought I would share my sad thoughts of the night. I love you so much Faith!!!!
Sunday, June 22, 2008
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you are right... it is sad to think that this precious being, who has in a sense become your whole world, is now going to have to "share" you... but it is so beautiful to watch little ones with a new baby brother or sister. And before you know it, Faith will have a new best friend, and she will never know any different.... but for now, she will get to be the big sister and the helper for you. She will seem so big all of a sudden, but she will always be your "baby." Make a point to always include her and give her a "job" to help out on all the baby tasks. You will learn ways to multi-task, too. With my boys, I went from nursing in my nice, expensive, comfy glider rocker to nursing on the couch because the big brother(s) would hop up there and we would all read books while I nursed the baby. They would take turns helping me burp him.
Having them so close together is going to have some little challenges along the way, but I am confident that the rewards will far outweigh those "crazy times!!" Good luck the last few weeks, and no more contractions... she needs to keep cooking a while longer!
Sorry for the novel comment... but I could so relate to your feelings... I will be thinking of you!
~summer
I obviously have just one kid, but I second what Summer says. I love you Lori!
I can only imagine how you are feeling I would probably feel the same way, feeling sad for Ashlyn not having me all to herself, but I'm sure Faith will LOVE to help out with baby Sophia and be a good big sister. Sorry you are feeling sad, story time is a great idea, Ashlyn loves that and it's indoors!
oh lori I am so sorry you have reached the uncomfortable stage and this heat cannot help. And your feelings are so normal. Kelsey is 3.5 and she is our only--we have talked recently about another and it makes me sad to think of sharing time and she has been the only one for almost 4 years. But I know sweet Faith will be such a great big sister!
Summer said it best!
Mallory has grown up so fast in the last 6 months. She is a fantastic big sister to Morgan and it really is a joy to watch them interact with each other. They truly love each other. No one can make Morgan smile as big as when Mallory says, "Good morning Morgan!" It is so sweet to watch. You will totally figure out how to give Faith the attention she will need and vice versa with Sophia. It's an instinct, I think. But, I won't sugar coat it all...it's tough having them close together! Some days I want to go back to working full time and life with just me and Brad:)
Hang in there Lori! Take naps when Faith does...you won't regret it, promise!! Love you and can't wait to hear all about your experiences!!!
You will miss the time with Faith...but once you have the baby you will also have time when you can get in the floor with her. I am just so thankful that newborns come home sleeping so much. If faith is like ALyssa she will want to help you with everything. Alyssa would always go and get me a blanket (burp rag) for caleb and it was a good thing because he spit up A LOT!! Enjoy the last few weeks as much as you can, and let me know if I can help. We do not live too far away. I could bring the kids over and that would be total craziness. :)
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